Since starting my yoga teacher training, I have looked for a self care journal that was perfect for me. Not finding one just right, I decided to make one of my own and share the PDF with anyone interested. Please send it to people in your life that you think it might help! Love and Light!
The most freeing feeling in the world is to let go of past grudges and aggression and forgive someone. In the past, I cocooned myself in anger and resentment toward the people in my life I felt had done me wrong. I stewed in self pity and malice, pushing away those who loved me, but didn’t love me how I wanted them to. I now see that it was a very small and selfish view of the situation. I was so focused on how it made me feel that I never realized that I was only making it worse with my attitude.
My anger has always been an issue throughout my life. It would come out as judgment of others, ‘hating’ things and people, and blowing up when I let my self-hatred gain strength over my emotions. I have recently realized that most of it stems from not feeling ‘good enough’ and placing myself into a separate bubble from other people who had different viewpoints than me. It was a cold and isolating place.
I have for the past little while been working on my self-love and being aware that holding onto this hurt and anger was creating poison inside me. The people who had done the hurting were not suffering as much as I was from not letting my emotions about past actions go. In some instances I have kept grudges from as far back as 20 years. This poison has been coursing through me unchecked and I am finally done with it.
I am worthy of love. Period. I cannot control how other people see or treat me, only how I will react to them. There is so much fear and hate in the world today that I will not be contributing anymore. We are all connected, all beautiful and perfect at our core. Most injury from others is just misunderstanding and assumption. If we come from a place of love, we can overcome any difference.
Just remember: You are worthy of love. Let go of the poison and breathe freely. We are one and I love you.